Tuesday, October 14, 2003
ooomg travis is freakin hilarious.
i love my lunch table, seriously, its such a blast with travis and socky and kristen and josue.
i dunno, it happened two years ago, its a little late to start caring again, dont you think?
fall break sucked
does anyone read this???
Posted at 02:11 pm by XxiheartyouxX
Friday, October 10, 2003
FUCK YOU.
i'm sorry mom. its not my fault.
uuugh. im losing all my friends and it hurts. go ahead ali and chandra, have fun cow tipping.
without me.
fuck you! ugh.
was his demise carefully constructed?
no lets just say i got what i wanted.
this is what living like this does.
i love brandon
Posted at 03:57 pm by XxiheartyouxX
Thursday, October 09, 2003
well guys i passed geometry maybe i'm not a failure after all.
i'm listening to "ghost of a good thing" by d/c. its gorgeous.
but not as gorgeous as you.
my first performance "guarding colors" is UIL. eeks.
ill be fine.
i believe in you so much, i would die for the words you say.
i wish i was at the game.
Posted at 09:18 pm by XxiheartyouxX
Friday, October 03, 2003
i will sing you lullabies
sitting here in multimedia class...i am so tired today. i went to practice this morning with huuuge bags under my eyes, acting kind of tipsy because the only allergy medicine i have is benedryl. theres something crisp in the mornings now...and its nice being outside every morning before sunrise. its beautiful.
hah, most of the time. its not so beautiful when cars want into the parking lot and i have to move, and silently debate whether i should "acidentally" hit it with my flag...i think too much sometimes.
school sucks, i'm exhausted, and i have spanish next period.
Woke up yesterday
with you on my mind
so afraid of running out of time
so come around again and i'll show you what i mean
And you can tell me
exactly what you need
and we can talk all night (we can talk all night)
and i will sing you lullabies (i will sing you lullabies)
not in every arrow is pointed straight at your heart
sorry for the time i said too much
i was so afraid that you would fall out of touch
and we can talk all night (we could talk all night)
and i will sing you lullabies (i will sing you lullabies)
not every arrow is pointed straight at your heart
so come around again (so come around again)
and we can talk all night
so come around again, so come around again
and we can talk all night (and we can talk all night)
i will sing you
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yesterday was awful. i went to the game last night and now i really wish i hadn't. cause when i was leaving...i started bawling. i wanted to be down there performing with the rest of them, not sitting in the stands with these fucking supid eighth graders rolling their eyes at me, and trying not to cry...
i feel like such a failure.
i wanted to perform so bad. i would have given anything,
anything to be able to perform. anything. i wanted to cry so bad when travis came up to me and said "i'm really glad you came, thank you for coming." i wanted to cry because i was so proud of him and jeremy. and i couldn't be there for their first performance. this makes my heart so sad...
this weekend should be fun. how many times will i be able to go to six flags with ali? baha.
the "band sex" was terrific today, i just have to say. :-D
i really hope brandon doesnt hurt me. i dont think he will, anytime soon. i like him so much, too much i think. yep. every time i feel this way it doesnt end pretty, should i just distance myself now so i dont love him? but i want to...uugh.
Posted at 01:42 pm by XxiheartyouxX
Wednesday, October 01, 2003
i hope youre as happy as youre pretending
i cant wait to see you again.
mean people piss me off.
i wish i was braver so i could stand up for people.
i wish i could present something without feeling like i'm going to faint...
im an idealist. i don't know where i'm going. but i'm on my way.
hah. mexicans+quicksand=cuatro, cinco!
hahahaha. get it.
Posted at 02:22 pm by XxiheartyouxX
i dream about you...
brandon is so good for me. he said if he doesnt act affecionate, its because he doesnt want to make it seem like he's using me. how perfect. what's usually the case is i go to the movies with someone, and kiss, and end up going out with them. brandon came over last weekend for four hours, with my parents not home, and all we did was watch a movie and cartoons, and talk.
i'm not used to this.
hes perfect.
i dont understand what he sees in me that is "beautiful"
i'm so emo right now. everything is going wrong lately. me and jeremy never talk anymore. ever. fine, forget about me, its not like we spent my darker half of my summer talking and laughing with you...i dont know why you dont want to be my friend.
speaking of missing this summer, every time, every time, i hear cute without the e it takes me back to last april, before the band trip. it makes me miss all the times i had with jenn and mandi and ali and ian, and the band trip.
i miss last year so much. this season just isn't the same.
just isn't the same anymore.
I think you're a really neat person. and I think I want to spend some more times with you, cause you aren't boring and your phone skills are really rad. you call me up again. I think I really like you. you're in my thoughts all the time. I remember what you look like. I can picture us walking hand in hand and side by side. then I look into your grey-blue eyes. I like you an awful lot.
Posted at 01:47 pm by XxiheartyouxX
Tuesday, September 30, 2003
yeeeeeeeeeeeah. its cute. i like being around him. we're so much alike, even though hes a bit odd...but yeah. he got me a rose, ive never been given flowers before. ever. it is awesome. i could fall in love again.
hands down this is the best day i can ever remember
i'll always remember the sound of the sterio the dim of the soft lights
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized its so late
and this walk that we shared together
the street was wet and the gate was locked
so i jumped it
and i let you in
and you stood at the door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me and you meant it
and i knew that you meant it
im. ineligible. i feel like a failure. but i know i'm funny.
Posted at 06:57 pm by XxiheartyouxX
Monday, September 29, 2003
:-D
brandon came by my house...today...and gave me a rose. then he got down on his knee and said "can i be your boyfriend?"
i am the luckiest girl ever.
so now i am so very, very happy.
Posted at 08:52 pm by XxiheartyouxX
so i have started a new blog from school. i like this site. yeeeah. there will be more to come later.
Posted at 02:37 pm by XxiheartyouxX
